Originally "Essence of Life Invaded By The Nazis"
It was on my LJ (:
c/p'd from skype chats
Me:oh yeah
last last night
i had a nightmareeeee
i think it was somehow related to the holocausttt
and hitler and the nazis LOL
cus i remember
in my nightmare
long lon gtime ago
there was a legend of a person who survived a genocide
or something
and then
in the present
that same thing was happening again
and i was part of the group
you were there toooo
i dont remember anyone else there
and we were at essence of life? (place in kensington market with yummy almond milk LOOOL)
except it looked super creeepy, cus we went at like 1am
and the almond milk wasnt on sale anymore
then i forgot what happened
and
we were all wearing black
and people were hunting us down
then a gorup of us ended up being the only survivors
we found a really goo dhiding place
LOOOL then then
we heard them coming
and they saw one of us
and
i was smart
i told you to go ---> of the building
everybody else went <----
but i followed them cus i wanted to tell them to go ----> too
and u were the only one who survived D;l
D: * SK:WHAAAAAAAAA
WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND THE OTHERS? ): i remember being really high up in an empty buldingg
EMPTY
and the walls were weird, we were hiding in corners and such
felt like an attic
and we saw helicopter spotlight thingies searchign for ppl every single day
we got caught ):
CONCENTRATION CAMPS? LOL IDUNNO
reminds me of the holocaust though LOL aw D:
stupid dream >=(
I wouldnt had left your side JL: u have CREEPY DREAMS LAUREN LOL ikr .____.
funny cus, melissa brought me to essence of life to buy almond milk when i got my haircut
LOOL LMAOO TOO MUCH HISTORY LAUREN LOL
ur dream sounds so
historicall ROFL apparently according to my nightmare, theres no sale past midnight, only during the day
._.
youre the reincarnation of the survivor form the legend! =O oohh lol D:
from the legend? " in my nightmare
long lon gtime ago
there was a legend of a person who survived a genocide
or something
and then
in the present
that same thing was happening again "
i have such scary nightmares.
havent posted on lj in so long!
so here's something.
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food. FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you sayin "DAMN!" we messed up!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Has you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME."
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you've had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don't waste!
FRIENDS: Would read & ignore this.
BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this shit!
Show your true colours, live life to the fullest. I'm not saying to throw live parties, and smoke/ do drugs and live like it's the end of the world like nothing matters, whatever you do-- the way you act. But hell, go do crazy legal things. Be LEGIT. Have fun, don't lose your mind and common sense.
But anyhow, out of the box, less familiarity. When everything doesn't go right, go left. That kindof stuff.
Here I come, Grade 11 & Sixteen! :)
Snap snap, click click, taking lots of pictures this year! Will invest in a better camera for birthday, or maybe it will have to wait till Xmas.
"Never explain yourself. Your friends don't need it, and your enemies won't believe it."
-Belgicia Howell
^So true, and now I know.
I'm def putting my child in dance, she'll thank me when she grows up (:
Contemplating whether I should blog this or not, but I'm mad at chu, so here goes.
What happened to being able to tell you everything in full satisfying details? Now it's all just an overview, or keeping the dilemma short. Must I be the one to notice that we've changed. Unlike on television where besties tell each other everything, including things related to their boyfriends. I feel like you hide that "separate life" from me. I know you'd like to keep your moments between the two of you though... I can only feel we're like sisters when I. ASK. YOU. if I can come over. When was the last time you came here? hahaha. I'm just hurt so easily over friendships, and losing people. I don't feel very ;loved, I've become so sensitive. You really are a different person. I know you always tell me I'm strong, but I'm fucking noob on the inside. Thoughts like these occasionally rule my mind. Don't blame yourself please, I should suck it up. If you opened up to me more, or assured me somehow that I'm as close as a sister to you like we used to be, I wouldn't be writing this.You talk to me like you talk to everybody else. I know you're friendly, ahah. I wouldn't say I have a best friend now, I just have a group of close friends.Fine drop strings, it's your decision, but I feel so bad about it, so really, don't take this like I'm forcing you to take it. Really unlikely we'll have a class together now. Sigh... Change is inevitable, I just wish this wouldn't make me feel like shit.
Me: OMG
before i forget
JACKIE CHAN WAS IN MY DREAM
LMAFOOOOOOOO
AND HE FELL IN LVOE WITH ME WJ: what LOLOL WTHWTH LFMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IKRRRRRRRRR you're my hero i was walking out of my house
at like
9pm
heading to carolyn's
for some reason
and i bumped into him
and i jumped him (like i would any celeb) LMFAOOOOO and he kissed me
and he was like whoa whoa where u heading, ill walk u did he have a chinese accent? there was a body guard holding an umbrella
and hes liek
but this guy has to come with me, or ill get wet and get in trouble
LOL LOL JACKIE CHAN NEEDS A BODYGUARD ?
i dont remember if he had an accent
and he was like
are u single
i didnt answer LOL and the body guard was like woww guess thats done
and he was like
wanna go out
and i waslike
WHOAWHOWHOAHWA
WAIt
I DIDNT ANSWER LMFAOMFAO and i rejected him
LMAFOOOOO
and then after
i was like
btw, im 15. LMFAOO
CW: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
HES 50
LOLOL LMFAOOO I KNOWWWWWWW
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what else do you dream about voldemort
he was in my house
except my hosue looked different
my dad was kindof the "hero"
but he wasnt home from work
and i kept being paranoid voldemort would kill me
but he was just chilling in my house
i guess he was waiting for my daddy
LMAOOO LMFAOO holy
too much harry potter ; O IKNOW
but i think i had that dream when i was little before
it felt familiar
i was pretty ninja, tricked him a few times
dont remember how LOLOL you tricked volemort yeeeeh (:
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THIS BE REAL / NOT A DREAM:
tony and danny keep saying my grandpa's gangster
LMAO
cus he has an earring hole
on one ear
and he was liek super ninja the other day
we were on one side of the street LOOL waiting for him to catchup
and then all of a sudden he called from in front LMAO he was on the other side of the street the whole time
LOOOL
NINJAAAAAAA LMFAO
holy crap
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Second entry from Dream Journal!
Except this time it's not from my dream journal? (lol)
I didn't write this down, but I remember these two dreams!
1) I was playing basketball, and suddenly it was 6 vs 1 (me)
The girls became bullies and I was being a pushover at first but I turned evil
I murdered them one by one, day by day behind the basketball net at CGF (my elementary school), I remember the blood of each girl splashing onto a new sheet of white paper everyday
& Everytime there was a little kid crouching behind me, watching me kill them.
I don't remember if it was a girl or a boy
& Yeah I think that's all I remember of my first dream
2) I was on a train that took people from neighbourhood to neighbourhood (for example, Little Italy to KTown)
& I met this nice stranger, and we started talking so I decided to stay on the train until we chose to end our conversation
Bily & the twins got on the train so I said hi to them
& as I was walking to the end of the train about to get off, I spotted Jessica from SNSD
I was so surprised -- why hadn't anyone else spotted her? People are blind these days! She's famous & so pretty!
So I got her autograph and showed it to the twins & Bily,
Then I got off the train
& That's all I remember from my second dream of last night
Now I'm off to bed, lalala sweet dreams Lauren! (:
<3
Lalalala, still at cousin's house
Slept over o:
Uhm, woke up at like noon YAY NO MORE SCHOOOOL
I don't really remember
What'd I eat for lunch? LOL
Oh right, rice and fried chicken o:
Uhmm, watched Ratatouille
Watched Devil Wears Prada (again)
Mel watched it like a bajillion times xD
I think it's her all-time fave movie
She watches it when she's bored
Nappedd
Tobo learned how to make spaghetti from his mom LOL
Well, it wasn't THAT bad, I shredded some cheese on it (:
Nomnomnom
After I finished washing the dishes, I went on the computer (on right now)
& I SAW YO ON FB CHAT! =D
I WAS SO SO HAPPY (:
I thought you'd get home really late and I Wouldn't get a chance to talk to you (cousin's would be using their computers)
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE x) <3
Hope I get to see you tmrww love, BOGOSHIPPOSO ): <3
TWO OF MY FAVE THINGS !! taylor swift + tyler ward <3
I forgot to post yesterday again, so I'll do that now :)
Missed you so much.
I couldn't sleep.
Felt like half of me was missing ):
Went to bed at 2ish? 1:30? I don't remember
But the last time I checked the time was 3:30
After I logged off the computer, I went back to the computer two times after that >< But no one was talking
& I wanted to play audi but no one would play with me
I did nothing all day yesterday! ):
Well, audi'd
But it was boring
I went over to my cousin's at 6-7ish
Then had BBQ at cousin's and I'm typing this on my cousin's computer atm (:
I Felt so lonely, Tobo was on the computer, and Mel was with her friends
I kept walking back and forth xD
& eating yummy food (:
We watched After.Life x-x
It wasn't that bad actually.
If the girl was less creepy looking, it wouldn't have been that bad
The movie had an interesting idea though, kindof confusing
& Yeah.
YOU'RE HOME TOMORROWWWWWWWWW <3
Almost there almost there!
!@&!(@$% Today was so tiring
One of the twins woke me up, but I was late ):
I asked them to help me get my report card for me
I texted Billy from home to meet at Highpark Stn, but they took FOREVER
I got there before them!
The twins told me Billy took them the wrong way,
but turns out they were at McDees
& I didn't even eat, I ran out of the house!
I was walking back and forth from the two exits of the stations looking for them! Guess we're even.
We went to Highpark, adventured, walked along non-human paths
(shoving past plants)
LOL BILLY SHOVED PAST A PLANT & IT BOUNCED BACK AND HIT ME ):
The plant had green stuff that stuck to our clothes
OH AND A SPIDER WEB WAS HANGING ON ME
Or well, spider web string? I thought I was scared & the hairs on my arm were standing up or something
& We walked up VERY steep hills
I swear I felt like I was about to fall
We went to the castle playground!
All 4 of us coming out of the slide must have looked ridiculous LOL
Then we walked to Western Beach ?
What a disappointment! It was a fail beach
From far when we saw the water, we got so excited to get there
The twins said it smelled bad but Billy & I couldn't smell it.
While at the bus stop, we saw a birdy fall from the highway.
Poor little guy, it was limping!
So lucky it fell right in the middle between the cars going north/south
It limped onto one side and the car almost ran it over!
So glad the driver saw it and slowed down
A nice lady in yellow was standing next to me waiting for the traffic to slow down so she could pick up the bird =D
I wanted to do it but then she came, yay adults!
The bus arrived when a twin & I was helping build the little birdy something to rest in out of napkins.
Hope it's doing okay right now.
& I hope you are too.
Still in Nova Scotia I wonder?
Miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <33
MY IDOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL, clara can be second LOL
AAAAHHH FAVE <3
When I woke up, I remembered dreaming about you
But now I can't remember it ):
I didn't feel like going to school today
I was downloading audi this morning, and while it was patching REALLY SLOWLY, I went to school
Billy and the twins were outside sitting on the grass! =o
Lily was waiting for someone to go to the mall
Then I came home, daddy was home all day
we didn't go anywhere, he seemed kindof mad today ><
I can play beatup on audi (:
It's kindof like ffr but there's 6 keys AND I have to press space bar!
I like the reeally fast songs, they're so exciting!
My uncle's renovating the basement o: I helped carry tiles (:
I can carry more than Danny! >=D
& I saw you were online this morning! =(
but I was still sleeping, boooooo.
I hope I get to talk to you tonighttttt, mwahhhhs <3
Tyler seems so outgoing and down to earth!
Awesome at producing, its ridiculous!
He's crazy talented.
The exam was hard.
A lot of people said it was easy though ><
After school I went to the newly renovated McDees with twinnie and monsieur
Then we went to the bank, Twinnie failed at using the machine LOOOOL
The door was locked to the inside where all the bank tellers and people were, so i put my face against the glass and mouthed "HELP US PLEASE"
So a guy came out afterward to help us
Then we went to the park
I played tag with the cutest little boy (:
I got a hug from him too, hehe
We saw Nelson & Justin there, and played with their frisbee
Failed at that
Then it started POURING
& I was see-through.
Well, my clothes were.
LOL DON'T U WISH U WERE THERE (:
TTC'd back to Julia's house
on the TTC we saw this little girl doing these crazy skips along the sidewalk and Twinnie was like
"I can picture Lauren doing that"
WHAT. LOL ):
Played some audi, ate some noodles, watched some TV, and more audi
& Just when I was about to go home, I SAW YOU ON! <3
Webcammed with youuuuuuuuuuuu <3
Got home at like 11:30ish x-x
Missing youu so muchh )= <3
Does anyone know what happened between Erin & Roxanne?
They used to seem the best of friends and sang songs together, but now they have separate youtube accounts?
Still, they're both crazy talented. I like Erin more (:
Studying is driving me crazy! I've never actually focused so much-- and this isn't even COMPLETELY focused. See, I'm here typing this for blogspot.
The title of this post is kinda funny in a way.
I thought of the title before I wrote this and before ..
.. You told me you actually saw the stars,
like, a lot of them =)
without the city lights probably.
I'm so jealous! Must've been a beautiful sight.
Which makes me wonder if we'll be able to see Mars in August,
how spectacular that would be..
Oh and that firefly you caught! You pro (:
You're in a different time zone now, an hour ahead.
Its 12:49am here, so it must be 1:49am there.
You're probably fast asleep by now.
I only got to talk to you for about half an hour.
You were about to leave after 10 minutes of chatting with me, but I wasn't satisfied yet.
I guess 30 minutes fills my satisfactory? I'm craving for more..
Haha that sounds weird.
Miss youu bunches love, and it's only been 2 days.
What am I going to do???
mwahmwahhs <3
I hardly know her, but she's my youtube idol! (:
LOVELOVELOVE! <3
You're long gone now,
Can't believe I couldn't wake up to say bye ):
I can't stop wondering what you're doing at the moment.
Are you in Quebec? eating French- french fries? LOL
Or maybe you're reading Harry Potter on the bus?
Or writing while I'm typing this?
It's so quiet. I think I'd rather be at school than at home. No one talks to me.
Things change I guess.
Things that seemed so simple, are now so far out of reach.
Set me free, leave me be.
Wish you could have packed me in your bag so I could be on the road with you.
My arm's still sore from the dumbbell you told me to lift yesterday ):
Lalala, gotta study and make you proud!
Oh yeah, I didn't fail that test! 86%, not bad not bad.
& I finished Chamber of Secrets today (:
You won't catch up to me!
Bogoshippo<3
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So while I was studying, I dreamed of you.
I was talking with Billy on the porch, I don't know who's porch, but some porch.
& then you suddenly came in a spaceship
I remember calling you an idiot for visiting me, all the way from Korea (which seemed so far away in my dream, like a distant planet)
& I remember crying because I didn't want to say goodbye AGAIN.
When you had to leave, you had to press "unpost" 3 times to link back and aboard your spaceship, where your brother and daddy were waiting LOL
I don't remember what else happened, but I know it wasn't a nightmare, it felt really nice being able to see you in my dream (:
& when I woke up, YOU WERE ONLINE! Felt like I was still asleep on daddy's bed.
LALALALAA <3
That's how I describe my day (:
It was so amallingsometacularbrillazyfunorabledonculouseventordinarypen- dousbergast
I just had to create this gimungous word for it.Props to whoever can point out each word in it.No, not Twinnie or Monsieur, because they know which ones are in it.
Julia Liu: pendousbergast
Julia Liu: sounds like some gass or butt disease
Lauren Wang: you know what
Lauren Wang: name your baby that
Lauren Wang: (':
Taco Time is such a ripoff! $5 for 5 tacos. Yay! I thought wrong. They put a spoon size amount of beef on the large Soft Flour Tortilla, and then sprinkle some lettuce, cheese, and semi-circle slice of a tomato. It's okay, it was only a buck. No biggie. I bit around the tortilla, to get to the yummy centre. Finally! I made it to the centre. And then-- I DROP IT. I drop the taco I was working so hard to get to the beef and hot sauce delish centre, and I didn't even get a bite of it. It's like a kid dropping their ice cream and only being left with the empty cone. So, so, soo sad.
This is my first entry from my 'Dream Journal'.
It's straight out of my journal with no edits, which I wrote right when I woke up.
We are going to get lunch and I remember my fam is eating dimsum so I ask him to come eat dimsum too. Grandparents don't want to share germs? We decide to sit at the table next to them. You keep forcing me to eat fish. I told you to try the sewmiy. They somehow understood your korean. You tell them I'm short so I need to eat fish. You paid $100, I paid $20, Grandparents paid $20 for theirs. We didn't sort out the change at the restaurant.
Field trip? A LOT of people. Crazy bus driver annoyed with loud students and starts driving like mad man. Turned over bus while driving. I was laughing. Everybody slept over at my house. I have bajillion pullout beds.
& That's all I wrote down. That's all I remember LOL. Hope you enjoyed reading!
My strings teacher woke me up this morning. She didn't believe I got the mark I told her I got on my test. Her memory told her another kid got the highest mark in the class, and wouldn't accept that I got the same mark he did. Well guess what lucky me found? MY TEST. It was under the bed, so HAH! A twin told me to call her yesterday, because she said she lost all our test marks. I hope I gained a lot of her trust, because I'm taking strings again next year. Dropped co-op for it too. I'm going back to school soon to show her my test (that I found under the bed, hehe luckyyy), and also to return my History textbook.
I experienced my first earthquake yesterday! The world is messed up, we shouldn't have earthquakes in Toronto! It was a really small one, but I was scared. We were watching Paranormal Activity at the same time.
1. I thought it was him making a joke and shaking the couch or something to scare me. 2. I thought the movie was coming to life. 3. I was lying down, and I just thought I was a little tipsy; unclear vision.
The title is a line from a poem I wrote in my diary.
I really liked it, so I felt like using it as a title (:
This post is random
My internet has been dead the whole day, so I'll take this time while my internet is working, to post this song.
Today was our bonding time, but they had to leave, boo.
We watched a movie and half of another movie.
The second movie was funny in the beginning, when the guy was trying to be smooth
and his suspenders snapped at his eye.
And following that, the girl hit her toe at the foot of the bed.
Hilarious, made me cry. Literally. LOL
It's just nice to laugh with my sorority sisters (:
It's such a privilege to grow old with somone.
--Daniel
To be alive, you have to live.
--Rich
Koh Koh showed me this song. It's really pretty (:
Today will forever be one of the most memorable days of my life. It was amazing. Spongebob was funny. I'm a Goofy Goober! Said Hi to your mommy. What a freaky coincidence that we sat at table 23. I like trying new things, that drink at Train was yummy (: Didn't like the strong coconut taste in the beginning though. I love Grass Jelly. Bonded with Twinnie and also bonded with Chewy. All four of us. How do you get pig from pie. LOL. Dolce Gelato's 'Limone' flavour is WAY too sour. The mixed berry wasn't bad, but I didn't like the seeds. The funnel cake strawberries tasted horrible. Almost saw the sunset, kindof. Aaah~ =)
This is the song I bring to you
Nothing made up no fancy tunes
I'm singing whatever's on my heart
So many times my faith grows weak
and So many times
You're the last one I seek
I don't know what you see in me
So here I am singing a song that I wrote
and Here I am playing guitar
that I don't know how to play, but that's okay
'cause you are the one
Who has sung over me
It's more than just any old Love Story
So won't you captivate my ears
I'm amazed by you
--JS
Lying next to each other
What are you gonna say
Make it perfect
Have our moment
Dont be shy
Say it shout it
Tell the world and
Write it in the sky
--Maribelle
When our hearts go ablaze
At the slightest touch
and After a single gaze
--LC
SUMMER TIME!
School's out, FINALLY (:
No more studying. No more hearing people brag about their smartybum marks.
HAHAHAHA
Going to enjoy summer for a week or two and then try my best to enjoy summer school.
With only one minute left in the exam, I was watching the clock tick closer to summer..summer..summer.. I don't think anyone in the room heard me except for him. When the exam was over I broke into HSM, but none of my classmates followed. How disappointing. Outside, maybe a couple of people followed me. That's okay. People just aren't cool enough for HSM.
We didn't end up going the beach, time went by fast after the exam. The Nutella milkshake wasn't very good, tasted like any milkshake. I couldn't taste much Nutella, and tasted, well, milk. Frozen yogourt next time! Strawberry, mmm.
You're so caring, I feel so safe when you piggyback me. Gave me a heart attack when you nearly dropped me. I know I must be heavy, meeyanhaeyo.
Actually, to be honest. I was extremely relieved there's no more exams. I was excited to jump out of the school and start singing 'What Time Is It'. I'm not exactly excited for summer..
Math exam. I don't even want to talk about it. I almost fell asleep twice or maybe three times during it. I was somehow able to do a Trig question, and I couldn't do the other questions. Multiple choice wasn't that bad. Too bad the word problems are worth about half the exam.
My title carries two meanings. After the exam, I had a lot of fun. Ate Cali's again. Billy was going to eat, but then she changed her mind. Nts: steak is pronounced stake. We walked back to your place, went into the candy store, the store with pretty dresses (which was kinda expensive), and ninja'd into Queen Video because the restaurant is right next to it. We rented out Spongebob, but didn't end up watching it. We'll watch it another day this week (: The event involving his brother was hilarious thinking back to it. Must say hi and give a good second impression next time LOL. Oh, and attempt to pwn you in hockey.
"Are you okay? Why are you crying so much? What's wrong?" Triggers more tears. *inhale. Nothing comes out. Kay, try again. *swallow. Shaky, and still cannot find my voice. I need you, I miss you, I'm sorry for crying, I'm so weak. I want to show you I'm stronger than this. Oh no my mascara smudged.. I hate how just those little things can make my make my mind run wild. I tremble, I squeeze. My heart hurt.
Tell me everything will be okay. Show me your cmile, it supports my fragile sensitivity, and makes me a thousand times happier.
Let's run off and do everything on my list ...
Grandma: What kind of brain do you have?! (fail translation)
Just because I have to check my blog calendar cus I can't remember my exam times...
Let's see her try to do my English essay, History essay, and study for Math & Science exams, and focus on remembering the time of the exams two days before the exam. (Sorry, that was a little confuzzling.)
On the positive side, yay Hyunah & the Twins are taking Strings next year! Well, one of the Twins is 90% sure she will, so I love her less (: ahah.
No one's on skype... So. Bored.
Two exams left to go.
If I'm strong I'll survive, and I'll keep my dreams alive! -Pokemon.
Inspirational quotes are a lot more.. inspirational when they come from Pokemon lyrics.
P.S., Toonie ps'd the picture
Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losin' it all
Where do I go from here?
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
Nothing is clear
Where do I go from here?
I planned to apply for a volunteer job as a camp leader, but I found out it costs $150. I decided to give up, but I changed my mind again. I really love little kids, they're adorable. If I got the job, I can put it on my resume, and I'll have good experience with kids. Then, I can apply for a job at the ex when the camp is over! Great logic. Plan failed.
Daddy came home today, and as usual, he was exhausted from work. I was hungry at that moment, so I was making a Nutella sandwich. Daddy started looking at his mail, and one of them was about a court trial? I don't like knowing about these adult matters. Children should not run errands for their parents, such as canceling their parking tickets for them because the police made a mistake. I know I deserve to know, and I should know, as the oldest child in the family. I still feel really young, and I'm not ready to take in this lawyer stuff.
I can handle responsibilities though. Adult errands and average responsibilities teenagers should have are not the same difference.
I wanted to tell him my plan when he got home, but he seemed too stressed. Also, he hadn't eaten or showered yet, which he normally does when he gets home. He forgot he had a few more things to deliver in his car, and had to head out again to finish delivering those. He asked me to come along with him. His job is to deliver stuff, I'm not sure exactly what he delivers, but it doesn't pay much. We practically live off my grandparents' old age pension. I feel spoiled yet at the same time, I feel like I have nothing.
Guess where else we went? BK. Burger King. At Midnight. Daddy promised he would buy my little step-brother a fish burger this weekend when he came over. It's the 'King Deal' on Fridays. (He comes every weekend, lives with his mom. My ex-step-mom. Complicated huh?!) My dad randomly started buying BK a lot recently. It's so unhealthy, and I'm probably getting really fat. I rage every time I have it for lunch at school.
Was so close to his house, I wanted to just jump out of the car and run over...
On the way home, we started chatting. It felt like a good time to talk to him, so I brought up my plan. when he heard I have to pay $150 for volunteer work (which means no profit) he said No. Then when I mentioned about getting a debit card, he said No. "When the time comes..." WHAT TIME?! I'm 15! Almost 16! All my friends have a debit cards. My dad just can't seem to let go of the little girl that I was, and let me grow up and take on responsibilities. I know he's just really worried, and cares about me. His mind is stuck on the fact that I'm a teenager who wants things like cellphones. He probably thinks I'll go on a shopping spree when I get a debit card. When I was looking at cellphone plans, I wasn't even looking at texting plans, or looking for unlimited texts like most people. I was thinking about suggesting a family plan to my dad, so we can call each other for free. He can check up on me all the time. Of course a part of me wants to have private chats on my phone with my friends, but can't he trust me? I can keep track of my minutes and everything.
I also tried explaining to him that I'm PRO of Key Club, but my chinese fails. I couldn't come up with any convincing arguments for getting a cell phone. I've tried talking about getting one before. (If I get a job, I could pay for it myself. He even said no to that, while my grandpa even said it was a great idea.) As an exec of Key Club, I lead events, and I will need a cell phone for communication. Plus, I need a cell phone to apply for jobs, because 1: Employers might call me while I'm not at home. 2: Grandparents don't understand English. @#!!
I really can't stand this, I feel like I'm caged. No freedom. I've never even been out of Toronto. Well, except for Niagara Falls-- I've been there twice. Although I didn't get to play any games, and we didn't go for the hotel either. No responsibilities.
At the subway station across from Queen's Park, there was a lady playing the guitar. She sang in tune, no screeching, and everything. She was able to reach the high notes, and at first I thought it was just a radio or something playing. I don't remember her clothes, but she didn't look poor or anything. Maybe the money was just confirmation of her beautiful voice. I was wondering, is she trying to become famous? Maybe someone will discover her underground? Or maybe she's playing for the sole purpose of entertaining the people that pass the station. She didn't have an audience. She looked really happy, and sang beautifully. Her smile was brilliant, and she wore red lipstick. I had to stop and stare in amazement for a while.
I was so afraid of getting lost, but he held onto my hand and didn't let go. The adventure was thrilling. It felt really nice near the lake, a little away from all the busy people and traffic. Let's do it again someday ..
I like it when you hold me near
With my head on your chest
I can hear your heart beating
and your steady breathing
It makes me feel so petite
So safe, yet fragile
and the world just feels Awesome.
Saturday was my first time leading a Key Club event as Key Club PRO! (: (That stands for Public Relations Officer btw!) I had an adventure with monsieur. We were planning to have "adventure time" for a while now, LOL. That's one thing to cross off my list of Things To Do Before I Graduate! We had a competition with the other "team" to see who could find 7-Eleven first, because we didn't know which way it was. The other team chose to go in the direction with buildings, while monsieur and I went in the direction with trees. Things aren't always as they seem, because we won! I gained hope when I first spotted the Pizza Pizza just across the street. Monsieur called the other team to ask what we should buy, but they had already bought the supplies we were on an errand for! I guess this evens it out, but we still found the 7-Eleven. Our sense of direction pwns (;
As monsieur and I were walking back to the tent, we decided to take a trail we came across. I recorded our adventure time. It was a really comfortable monsieur & madam bonding time. He had to hold on to my bag because he was scared! LOL The scenery was beautiful that morning. The rays of sunlight shone through the trees, but my camera didn't catch it very well. It reminded us of scenes from Twilight and New Moon where Edward Cullen would step into the sunlight, and his body would glitter. And also in the woods where Jacob Black's pack of wolves would hunt us down and devour us. I was more afraid of the spider web hanging from a tree that could potentially have a spider in it though.
As the day moved on, and twinnie and I sat in the tent doing our easy job, we grew extremely restless. We were also annoyed that the trees constantly peed on us in the tent. It was as if there was one rain cloud in the entire sky, hovering over the tent. While the runners were running the marathon, we got out of the tent and took a stroll. We stepped into the weeds and the trees, that led to .. we didn't know! Every trail led to two or three more trails. We came across a choice of three, one which looked pretty, one that looked like it'd lead us back to civilization, and one that we didn't know where it would lead to. We decided to take that last one-- we're so brave! The grass and weeds were up to our knees/thighs, and got our jeans all wet. Twinnie had to walk behind me, because I was also recording this adventure. I ran out of memory space near the end. We felt lost for a split second after running into the lady with the dog. We asked her for directions. If we had gotten lost, we could just watch our video! As twinnie said, we're smarter than Hansel & Gretel (:
I was reminded of our friendship from the past, that closeness we had back then. I wanted to take a tight hold on it, and never let go. It's so difficult because we only have one class together. Both of us are trying hard, and maybe we'll get there. I'm more sure we definitely will now.
This was my favourite thing to say at High Park:
I SEE CIVILIZATION!
Monsieur, Twinnie, Wangchops, Chewie, and I went to KFest at Christie Pits, walked around, painted tiles, made a silly-looking hat, and we were going to get our faces painted. I kept wishing one other person was there too. I was upset for most of the day because I felt so unimportant and non-existent to someone who was constantly ignoring me and not paying attention to me. But looking back to Saturday, I'm very thankful to have such amazing friends. We had a fun time at the festival, and I love them for always being there for me.
I made a blogspot! Hoooray, and it's public too. I really wanted a private one, because I write too slow to use my diary. If only I could use the picture on my diary as the Blog Skin. It's so pretty! Ahah. Yeah so, I'll probably blog often in the summer (: This can help my typing speed yay.
August: 21: work starts: 8am-3pm
--- AJ RAFAEL 8PM DUNDAS SQUARE 22: work 8am-3pm
--- cne w/ homies 23: tree watering 5:15pm
--- 9 months sk <33 24: work 8am-3pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KW (^) 25: work 8am-3pm 26: cne w/ nw 28: work 8am-3pm
--- et's party 29: work 8am-3pm
--- byee melissa 10pm 30: tree watering 5:15pm 31: work 8am-3pm
--- soccer
September: 1: work 8am-3pm
--- karaoke 2: center island picnic 4: work 8am-3pm 5: work 8am-3pm 6: work 8am-3pm 9: dentist 4:45
[ ] watch the sunset/sunrise
[ ] finish watching you're beautiful
[ ] rewatch one litre of tears
[x] adventure time
[ ] the ex
[ ] skydome
[ ] beach
[ ] swimming
[ ] bake cwookies
[ ] make sushi
[ ] big chill frozen yogourt
[x] xbox-hockey,cod
[x] bpq
[x] japan sushi restaurant
[ ] star gazing
[x] cloud watching
[ ] northern lights
[ ] wonderland
[ ] dropzone
[x] out for dinner
[x] funnel cake
[ ] center island
[/] fireworks
[ ] dimsum
[ ] kbbq
[x] high park-castle playground
[x] watch spongebob
[ ] sit on a roof
[x] wrestle
[x] lounge
[x] shopping
[x] coconut red bean greem slimy stuff grass jelly
[ ] ikea
[ ] fishing
[ ] seatmoving ride thingy movie thingy
[ ] HP movie marathon
[ ] go karting
[ ] mini golf
[ ] marineland
[ ] popeyes fries
[ ]
Infinity & Beyond
[ ] northern lights
[ ] disney world & disney land
[ ] live concert of awesome singer/band
[ ] pet a platypus
[ ] ride a dolphin
[ ] climb an insanely tall tree
[ ] graffiti a wall with my name
[ ] walk on train tracks
[ ] go to the US
[ ] attend awards show
[ ] be on live tv/movie set
[ ] bungee jump
[ ] learn amazing piano piece
[ ] watch the sunrise/sunset
[ ] talk on the phone till sunrise
[ ] dropzone
[ ] "saving the world" excuse for being late
[ ] go to korea
[x] cafe princess
[x] pmall with friends
[ ] fairview mall
[ ] platform 9 3/4
[ ] go karting
[ ] golf
[ ] go to a wedding before my own
[ ] build-a-bear
[ ] Atlanta, Georgia AQUARIUM
[ ] camp
[ ]
April's Giveaway!!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
WATCH THE VIDEO!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKm7MUi5OcI
READ THE BLOG POST FOR INFO TOO!
http://aprilathena7.blogspot.com/2011/02/happy-giveaway-us-canada.html
Originally "Essence of Life Invaded By The Nazis"
It was on my LJ (:
c/p'd from skype chats
Me:oh yeah
last last night
i had a nightmareeeee
i think it was somehow related to the holocausttt
and hitler and the nazis LOL
cus i remember
in my nightmare
long lon gtime ago
there was a legend of a person who survived a genocide
or something
and then
in the present
that same thing was happening again
and i was part of the group
you were there toooo
i dont remember anyone else there
and we were at essence of life? (place in kensington market with yummy almond milk LOOOL)
except it looked super creeepy, cus we went at like 1am
and the almond milk wasnt on sale anymore
then i forgot what happened
and
we were all wearing black
and people were hunting us down
then a gorup of us ended up being the only survivors
we found a really goo dhiding place
LOOOL then then
we heard them coming
and they saw one of us
and
i was smart
i told you to go ---> of the building
everybody else went <----
but i followed them cus i wanted to tell them to go ----> too
and u were the only one who survived D;l
D: * SK:WHAAAAAAAAA
WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND THE OTHERS? ): i remember being really high up in an empty buldingg
EMPTY
and the walls were weird, we were hiding in corners and such
felt like an attic
and we saw helicopter spotlight thingies searchign for ppl every single day
we got caught ):
CONCENTRATION CAMPS? LOL IDUNNO
reminds me of the holocaust though LOL aw D:
stupid dream >=(
I wouldnt had left your side JL: u have CREEPY DREAMS LAUREN LOL ikr .____.
funny cus, melissa brought me to essence of life to buy almond milk when i got my haircut
LOOL LMAOO TOO MUCH HISTORY LAUREN LOL
ur dream sounds so
historicall ROFL apparently according to my nightmare, theres no sale past midnight, only during the day
._.
youre the reincarnation of the survivor form the legend! =O oohh lol D:
from the legend? " in my nightmare
long lon gtime ago
there was a legend of a person who survived a genocide
or something
and then
in the present
that same thing was happening again "
i have such scary nightmares.
havent posted on lj in so long!
so here's something.
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food. FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you sayin "DAMN!" we messed up!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Has you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME."
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you've had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don't waste!
FRIENDS: Would read & ignore this.
BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this shit!
Show your true colours, live life to the fullest. I'm not saying to throw live parties, and smoke/ do drugs and live like it's the end of the world like nothing matters, whatever you do-- the way you act. But hell, go do crazy legal things. Be LEGIT. Have fun, don't lose your mind and common sense.
But anyhow, out of the box, less familiarity. When everything doesn't go right, go left. That kindof stuff.
Here I come, Grade 11 & Sixteen! :)
Snap snap, click click, taking lots of pictures this year! Will invest in a better camera for birthday, or maybe it will have to wait till Xmas.
"Never explain yourself. Your friends don't need it, and your enemies won't believe it."
-Belgicia Howell
^So true, and now I know.
I'm def putting my child in dance, she'll thank me when she grows up (:
Contemplating whether I should blog this or not, but I'm mad at chu, so here goes.
What happened to being able to tell you everything in full satisfying details? Now it's all just an overview, or keeping the dilemma short. Must I be the one to notice that we've changed. Unlike on television where besties tell each other everything, including things related to their boyfriends. I feel like you hide that "separate life" from me. I know you'd like to keep your moments between the two of you though... I can only feel we're like sisters when I. ASK. YOU. if I can come over. When was the last time you came here? hahaha. I'm just hurt so easily over friendships, and losing people. I don't feel very ;loved, I've become so sensitive. You really are a different person. I know you always tell me I'm strong, but I'm fucking noob on the inside. Thoughts like these occasionally rule my mind. Don't blame yourself please, I should suck it up. If you opened up to me more, or assured me somehow that I'm as close as a sister to you like we used to be, I wouldn't be writing this.You talk to me like you talk to everybody else. I know you're friendly, ahah. I wouldn't say I have a best friend now, I just have a group of close friends.Fine drop strings, it's your decision, but I feel so bad about it, so really, don't take this like I'm forcing you to take it. Really unlikely we'll have a class together now. Sigh... Change is inevitable, I just wish this wouldn't make me feel like shit.
Me: OMG
before i forget
JACKIE CHAN WAS IN MY DREAM
LMAFOOOOOOOO
AND HE FELL IN LVOE WITH ME WJ: what LOLOL WTHWTH LFMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IKRRRRRRRRR you're my hero i was walking out of my house
at like
9pm
heading to carolyn's
for some reason
and i bumped into him
and i jumped him (like i would any celeb) LMFAOOOOO and he kissed me
and he was like whoa whoa where u heading, ill walk u did he have a chinese accent? there was a body guard holding an umbrella
and hes liek
but this guy has to come with me, or ill get wet and get in trouble
LOL LOL JACKIE CHAN NEEDS A BODYGUARD ?
i dont remember if he had an accent
and he was like
are u single
i didnt answer LOL and the body guard was like woww guess thats done
and he was like
wanna go out
and i waslike
WHOAWHOWHOAHWA
WAIt
I DIDNT ANSWER LMFAOMFAO and i rejected him
LMAFOOOOO
and then after
i was like
btw, im 15. LMFAOO
CW: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
HES 50
LOLOL LMFAOOO I KNOWWWWWWW
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what else do you dream about voldemort
he was in my house
except my hosue looked different
my dad was kindof the "hero"
but he wasnt home from work
and i kept being paranoid voldemort would kill me
but he was just chilling in my house
i guess he was waiting for my daddy
LMAOOO LMFAOO holy
too much harry potter ; O IKNOW
but i think i had that dream when i was little before
it felt familiar
i was pretty ninja, tricked him a few times
dont remember how LOLOL you tricked volemort yeeeeh (:
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THIS BE REAL / NOT A DREAM:
tony and danny keep saying my grandpa's gangster
LMAO
cus he has an earring hole
on one ear
and he was liek super ninja the other day
we were on one side of the street LOOL waiting for him to catchup
and then all of a sudden he called from in front LMAO he was on the other side of the street the whole time
LOOOL
NINJAAAAAAA LMFAO
holy crap
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Second entry from Dream Journal!
Except this time it's not from my dream journal? (lol)
I didn't write this down, but I remember these two dreams!
1) I was playing basketball, and suddenly it was 6 vs 1 (me)
The girls became bullies and I was being a pushover at first but I turned evil
I murdered them one by one, day by day behind the basketball net at CGF (my elementary school), I remember the blood of each girl splashing onto a new sheet of white paper everyday
& Everytime there was a little kid crouching behind me, watching me kill them.
I don't remember if it was a girl or a boy
& Yeah I think that's all I remember of my first dream
2) I was on a train that took people from neighbourhood to neighbourhood (for example, Little Italy to KTown)
& I met this nice stranger, and we started talking so I decided to stay on the train until we chose to end our conversation
Bily & the twins got on the train so I said hi to them
& as I was walking to the end of the train about to get off, I spotted Jessica from SNSD
I was so surprised -- why hadn't anyone else spotted her? People are blind these days! She's famous & so pretty!
So I got her autograph and showed it to the twins & Bily,
Then I got off the train
& That's all I remember from my second dream of last night
Now I'm off to bed, lalala sweet dreams Lauren! (:
<3
Lalalala, still at cousin's house
Slept over o:
Uhm, woke up at like noon YAY NO MORE SCHOOOOL
I don't really remember
What'd I eat for lunch? LOL
Oh right, rice and fried chicken o:
Uhmm, watched Ratatouille
Watched Devil Wears Prada (again)
Mel watched it like a bajillion times xD
I think it's her all-time fave movie
She watches it when she's bored
Nappedd
Tobo learned how to make spaghetti from his mom LOL
Well, it wasn't THAT bad, I shredded some cheese on it (:
Nomnomnom
After I finished washing the dishes, I went on the computer (on right now)
& I SAW YO ON FB CHAT! =D
I WAS SO SO HAPPY (:
I thought you'd get home really late and I Wouldn't get a chance to talk to you (cousin's would be using their computers)
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE x) <3
Hope I get to see you tmrww love, BOGOSHIPPOSO ): <3
TWO OF MY FAVE THINGS !! taylor swift + tyler ward <3
I forgot to post yesterday again, so I'll do that now :)
Missed you so much.
I couldn't sleep.
Felt like half of me was missing ):
Went to bed at 2ish? 1:30? I don't remember
But the last time I checked the time was 3:30
After I logged off the computer, I went back to the computer two times after that >< But no one was talking
& I wanted to play audi but no one would play with me
I did nothing all day yesterday! ):
Well, audi'd
But it was boring
I went over to my cousin's at 6-7ish
Then had BBQ at cousin's and I'm typing this on my cousin's computer atm (:
I Felt so lonely, Tobo was on the computer, and Mel was with her friends
I kept walking back and forth xD
& eating yummy food (:
We watched After.Life x-x
It wasn't that bad actually.
If the girl was less creepy looking, it wouldn't have been that bad
The movie had an interesting idea though, kindof confusing
& Yeah.
YOU'RE HOME TOMORROWWWWWWWWW <3
Almost there almost there!
!@&!(@$% Today was so tiring
One of the twins woke me up, but I was late ):
I asked them to help me get my report card for me
I texted Billy from home to meet at Highpark Stn, but they took FOREVER
I got there before them!
The twins told me Billy took them the wrong way,
but turns out they were at McDees
& I didn't even eat, I ran out of the house!
I was walking back and forth from the two exits of the stations looking for them! Guess we're even.
We went to Highpark, adventured, walked along non-human paths
(shoving past plants)
LOL BILLY SHOVED PAST A PLANT & IT BOUNCED BACK AND HIT ME ):
The plant had green stuff that stuck to our clothes
OH AND A SPIDER WEB WAS HANGING ON ME
Or well, spider web string? I thought I was scared & the hairs on my arm were standing up or something
& We walked up VERY steep hills
I swear I felt like I was about to fall
We went to the castle playground!
All 4 of us coming out of the slide must have looked ridiculous LOL
Then we walked to Western Beach ?
What a disappointment! It was a fail beach
From far when we saw the water, we got so excited to get there
The twins said it smelled bad but Billy & I couldn't smell it.
While at the bus stop, we saw a birdy fall from the highway.
Poor little guy, it was limping!
So lucky it fell right in the middle between the cars going north/south
It limped onto one side and the car almost ran it over!
So glad the driver saw it and slowed down
A nice lady in yellow was standing next to me waiting for the traffic to slow down so she could pick up the bird =D
I wanted to do it but then she came, yay adults!
The bus arrived when a twin & I was helping build the little birdy something to rest in out of napkins.
Hope it's doing okay right now.
& I hope you are too.
Still in Nova Scotia I wonder?
Miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <33
MY IDOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL, clara can be second LOL
AAAAHHH FAVE <3
When I woke up, I remembered dreaming about you
But now I can't remember it ):
I didn't feel like going to school today
I was downloading audi this morning, and while it was patching REALLY SLOWLY, I went to school
Billy and the twins were outside sitting on the grass! =o
Lily was waiting for someone to go to the mall
Then I came home, daddy was home all day
we didn't go anywhere, he seemed kindof mad today ><
I can play beatup on audi (:
It's kindof like ffr but there's 6 keys AND I have to press space bar!
I like the reeally fast songs, they're so exciting!
My uncle's renovating the basement o: I helped carry tiles (:
I can carry more than Danny! >=D
& I saw you were online this morning! =(
but I was still sleeping, boooooo.
I hope I get to talk to you tonighttttt, mwahhhhs <3
Tyler seems so outgoing and down to earth!
Awesome at producing, its ridiculous!
He's crazy talented.
The exam was hard.
A lot of people said it was easy though ><
After school I went to the newly renovated McDees with twinnie and monsieur
Then we went to the bank, Twinnie failed at using the machine LOOOOL
The door was locked to the inside where all the bank tellers and people were, so i put my face against the glass and mouthed "HELP US PLEASE"
So a guy came out afterward to help us
Then we went to the park
I played tag with the cutest little boy (:
I got a hug from him too, hehe
We saw Nelson & Justin there, and played with their frisbee
Failed at that
Then it started POURING
& I was see-through.
Well, my clothes were.
LOL DON'T U WISH U WERE THERE (:
TTC'd back to Julia's house
on the TTC we saw this little girl doing these crazy skips along the sidewalk and Twinnie was like
"I can picture Lauren doing that"
WHAT. LOL ):
Played some audi, ate some noodles, watched some TV, and more audi
& Just when I was about to go home, I SAW YOU ON! <3
Webcammed with youuuuuuuuuuuu <3
Got home at like 11:30ish x-x
Missing youu so muchh )= <3
Does anyone know what happened between Erin & Roxanne?
They used to seem the best of friends and sang songs together, but now they have separate youtube accounts?
Still, they're both crazy talented. I like Erin more (:
Studying is driving me crazy! I've never actually focused so much-- and this isn't even COMPLETELY focused. See, I'm here typing this for blogspot.
The title of this post is kinda funny in a way.
I thought of the title before I wrote this and before ..
.. You told me you actually saw the stars,
like, a lot of them =)
without the city lights probably.
I'm so jealous! Must've been a beautiful sight.
Which makes me wonder if we'll be able to see Mars in August,
how spectacular that would be..
Oh and that firefly you caught! You pro (:
You're in a different time zone now, an hour ahead.
Its 12:49am here, so it must be 1:49am there.
You're probably fast asleep by now.
I only got to talk to you for about half an hour.
You were about to leave after 10 minutes of chatting with me, but I wasn't satisfied yet.
I guess 30 minutes fills my satisfactory? I'm craving for more..
Haha that sounds weird.
Miss youu bunches love, and it's only been 2 days.
What am I going to do???
mwahmwahhs <3
I hardly know her, but she's my youtube idol! (:
LOVELOVELOVE! <3
You're long gone now,
Can't believe I couldn't wake up to say bye ):
I can't stop wondering what you're doing at the moment.
Are you in Quebec? eating French- french fries? LOL
Or maybe you're reading Harry Potter on the bus?
Or writing while I'm typing this?
It's so quiet. I think I'd rather be at school than at home. No one talks to me.
Things change I guess.
Things that seemed so simple, are now so far out of reach.
Set me free, leave me be.
Wish you could have packed me in your bag so I could be on the road with you.
My arm's still sore from the dumbbell you told me to lift yesterday ):
Lalala, gotta study and make you proud!
Oh yeah, I didn't fail that test! 86%, not bad not bad.
& I finished Chamber of Secrets today (:
You won't catch up to me!
Bogoshippo<3
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So while I was studying, I dreamed of you.
I was talking with Billy on the porch, I don't know who's porch, but some porch.
& then you suddenly came in a spaceship
I remember calling you an idiot for visiting me, all the way from Korea (which seemed so far away in my dream, like a distant planet)
& I remember crying because I didn't want to say goodbye AGAIN.
When you had to leave, you had to press "unpost" 3 times to link back and aboard your spaceship, where your brother and daddy were waiting LOL
I don't remember what else happened, but I know it wasn't a nightmare, it felt really nice being able to see you in my dream (:
& when I woke up, YOU WERE ONLINE! Felt like I was still asleep on daddy's bed.
LALALALAA <3
That's how I describe my day (:
It was so amallingsometacularbrillazyfunorabledonculouseventordinarypen- dousbergast
I just had to create this gimungous word for it.Props to whoever can point out each word in it.No, not Twinnie or Monsieur, because they know which ones are in it.
Julia Liu: pendousbergast
Julia Liu: sounds like some gass or butt disease
Lauren Wang: you know what
Lauren Wang: name your baby that
Lauren Wang: (':
Taco Time is such a ripoff! $5 for 5 tacos. Yay! I thought wrong. They put a spoon size amount of beef on the large Soft Flour Tortilla, and then sprinkle some lettuce, cheese, and semi-circle slice of a tomato. It's okay, it was only a buck. No biggie. I bit around the tortilla, to get to the yummy centre. Finally! I made it to the centre. And then-- I DROP IT. I drop the taco I was working so hard to get to the beef and hot sauce delish centre, and I didn't even get a bite of it. It's like a kid dropping their ice cream and only being left with the empty cone. So, so, soo sad.
This is my first entry from my 'Dream Journal'.
It's straight out of my journal with no edits, which I wrote right when I woke up.
We are going to get lunch and I remember my fam is eating dimsum so I ask him to come eat dimsum too. Grandparents don't want to share germs? We decide to sit at the table next to them. You keep forcing me to eat fish. I told you to try the sewmiy. They somehow understood your korean. You tell them I'm short so I need to eat fish. You paid $100, I paid $20, Grandparents paid $20 for theirs. We didn't sort out the change at the restaurant.
Field trip? A LOT of people. Crazy bus driver annoyed with loud students and starts driving like mad man. Turned over bus while driving. I was laughing. Everybody slept over at my house. I have bajillion pullout beds.
& That's all I wrote down. That's all I remember LOL. Hope you enjoyed reading!
My strings teacher woke me up this morning. She didn't believe I got the mark I told her I got on my test. Her memory told her another kid got the highest mark in the class, and wouldn't accept that I got the same mark he did. Well guess what lucky me found? MY TEST. It was under the bed, so HAH! A twin told me to call her yesterday, because she said she lost all our test marks. I hope I gained a lot of her trust, because I'm taking strings again next year. Dropped co-op for it too. I'm going back to school soon to show her my test (that I found under the bed, hehe luckyyy), and also to return my History textbook.
I experienced my first earthquake yesterday! The world is messed up, we shouldn't have earthquakes in Toronto! It was a really small one, but I was scared. We were watching Paranormal Activity at the same time.
1. I thought it was him making a joke and shaking the couch or something to scare me. 2. I thought the movie was coming to life. 3. I was lying down, and I just thought I was a little tipsy; unclear vision.
The title is a line from a poem I wrote in my diary.
I really liked it, so I felt like using it as a title (:
This post is random
My internet has been dead the whole day, so I'll take this time while my internet is working, to post this song.
Today was our bonding time, but they had to leave, boo.
We watched a movie and half of another movie.
The second movie was funny in the beginning, when the guy was trying to be smooth
and his suspenders snapped at his eye.
And following that, the girl hit her toe at the foot of the bed.
Hilarious, made me cry. Literally. LOL
It's just nice to laugh with my sorority sisters (:
It's such a privilege to grow old with somone.
--Daniel
To be alive, you have to live.
--Rich
Koh Koh showed me this song. It's really pretty (:
Today will forever be one of the most memorable days of my life. It was amazing. Spongebob was funny. I'm a Goofy Goober! Said Hi to your mommy. What a freaky coincidence that we sat at table 23. I like trying new things, that drink at Train was yummy (: Didn't like the strong coconut taste in the beginning though. I love Grass Jelly. Bonded with Twinnie and also bonded with Chewy. All four of us. How do you get pig from pie. LOL. Dolce Gelato's 'Limone' flavour is WAY too sour. The mixed berry wasn't bad, but I didn't like the seeds. The funnel cake strawberries tasted horrible. Almost saw the sunset, kindof. Aaah~ =)
This is the song I bring to you
Nothing made up no fancy tunes
I'm singing whatever's on my heart
So many times my faith grows weak
and So many times
You're the last one I seek
I don't know what you see in me
So here I am singing a song that I wrote
and Here I am playing guitar
that I don't know how to play, but that's okay
'cause you are the one
Who has sung over me
It's more than just any old Love Story
So won't you captivate my ears
I'm amazed by you
--JS
Lying next to each other
What are you gonna say
Make it perfect
Have our moment
Dont be shy
Say it shout it
Tell the world and
Write it in the sky
--Maribelle
When our hearts go ablaze
At the slightest touch
and After a single gaze
--LC
SUMMER TIME!
School's out, FINALLY (:
No more studying. No more hearing people brag about their smartybum marks.
HAHAHAHA
Going to enjoy summer for a week or two and then try my best to enjoy summer school.
With only one minute left in the exam, I was watching the clock tick closer to summer..summer..summer.. I don't think anyone in the room heard me except for him. When the exam was over I broke into HSM, but none of my classmates followed. How disappointing. Outside, maybe a couple of people followed me. That's okay. People just aren't cool enough for HSM.
We didn't end up going the beach, time went by fast after the exam. The Nutella milkshake wasn't very good, tasted like any milkshake. I couldn't taste much Nutella, and tasted, well, milk. Frozen yogourt next time! Strawberry, mmm.
You're so caring, I feel so safe when you piggyback me. Gave me a heart attack when you nearly dropped me. I know I must be heavy, meeyanhaeyo.
Actually, to be honest. I was extremely relieved there's no more exams. I was excited to jump out of the school and start singing 'What Time Is It'. I'm not exactly excited for summer..
Math exam. I don't even want to talk about it. I almost fell asleep twice or maybe three times during it. I was somehow able to do a Trig question, and I couldn't do the other questions. Multiple choice wasn't that bad. Too bad the word problems are worth about half the exam.
My title carries two meanings. After the exam, I had a lot of fun. Ate Cali's again. Billy was going to eat, but then she changed her mind. Nts: steak is pronounced stake. We walked back to your place, went into the candy store, the store with pretty dresses (which was kinda expensive), and ninja'd into Queen Video because the restaurant is right next to it. We rented out Spongebob, but didn't end up watching it. We'll watch it another day this week (: The event involving his brother was hilarious thinking back to it. Must say hi and give a good second impression next time LOL. Oh, and attempt to pwn you in hockey.
"Are you okay? Why are you crying so much? What's wrong?" Triggers more tears. *inhale. Nothing comes out. Kay, try again. *swallow. Shaky, and still cannot find my voice. I need you, I miss you, I'm sorry for crying, I'm so weak. I want to show you I'm stronger than this. Oh no my mascara smudged.. I hate how just those little things can make my make my mind run wild. I tremble, I squeeze. My heart hurt.
Tell me everything will be okay. Show me your cmile, it supports my fragile sensitivity, and makes me a thousand times happier.
Let's run off and do everything on my list ...
Grandma: What kind of brain do you have?! (fail translation)
Just because I have to check my blog calendar cus I can't remember my exam times...
Let's see her try to do my English essay, History essay, and study for Math & Science exams, and focus on remembering the time of the exams two days before the exam. (Sorry, that was a little confuzzling.)
On the positive side, yay Hyunah & the Twins are taking Strings next year! Well, one of the Twins is 90% sure she will, so I love her less (: ahah.
No one's on skype... So. Bored.
Two exams left to go.
If I'm strong I'll survive, and I'll keep my dreams alive! -Pokemon.
Inspirational quotes are a lot more.. inspirational when they come from Pokemon lyrics.
P.S., Toonie ps'd the picture
Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losin' it all
Where do I go from here?
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
Nothing is clear
Where do I go from here?
I planned to apply for a volunteer job as a camp leader, but I found out it costs $150. I decided to give up, but I changed my mind again. I really love little kids, they're adorable. If I got the job, I can put it on my resume, and I'll have good experience with kids. Then, I can apply for a job at the ex when the camp is over! Great logic. Plan failed.
Daddy came home today, and as usual, he was exhausted from work. I was hungry at that moment, so I was making a Nutella sandwich. Daddy started looking at his mail, and one of them was about a court trial? I don't like knowing about these adult matters. Children should not run errands for their parents, such as canceling their parking tickets for them because the police made a mistake. I know I deserve to know, and I should know, as the oldest child in the family. I still feel really young, and I'm not ready to take in this lawyer stuff.
I can handle responsibilities though. Adult errands and average responsibilities teenagers should have are not the same difference.
I wanted to tell him my plan when he got home, but he seemed too stressed. Also, he hadn't eaten or showered yet, which he normally does when he gets home. He forgot he had a few more things to deliver in his car, and had to head out again to finish delivering those. He asked me to come along with him. His job is to deliver stuff, I'm not sure exactly what he delivers, but it doesn't pay much. We practically live off my grandparents' old age pension. I feel spoiled yet at the same time, I feel like I have nothing.
Guess where else we went? BK. Burger King. At Midnight. Daddy promised he would buy my little step-brother a fish burger this weekend when he came over. It's the 'King Deal' on Fridays. (He comes every weekend, lives with his mom. My ex-step-mom. Complicated huh?!) My dad randomly started buying BK a lot recently. It's so unhealthy, and I'm probably getting really fat. I rage every time I have it for lunch at school.
Was so close to his house, I wanted to just jump out of the car and run over...
On the way home, we started chatting. It felt like a good time to talk to him, so I brought up my plan. when he heard I have to pay $150 for volunteer work (which means no profit) he said No. Then when I mentioned about getting a debit card, he said No. "When the time comes..." WHAT TIME?! I'm 15! Almost 16! All my friends have a debit cards. My dad just can't seem to let go of the little girl that I was, and let me grow up and take on responsibilities. I know he's just really worried, and cares about me. His mind is stuck on the fact that I'm a teenager who wants things like cellphones. He probably thinks I'll go on a shopping spree when I get a debit card. When I was looking at cellphone plans, I wasn't even looking at texting plans, or looking for unlimited texts like most people. I was thinking about suggesting a family plan to my dad, so we can call each other for free. He can check up on me all the time. Of course a part of me wants to have private chats on my phone with my friends, but can't he trust me? I can keep track of my minutes and everything.
I also tried explaining to him that I'm PRO of Key Club, but my chinese fails. I couldn't come up with any convincing arguments for getting a cell phone. I've tried talking about getting one before. (If I get a job, I could pay for it myself. He even said no to that, while my grandpa even said it was a great idea.) As an exec of Key Club, I lead events, and I will need a cell phone for communication. Plus, I need a cell phone to apply for jobs, because 1: Employers might call me while I'm not at home. 2: Grandparents don't understand English. @#!!
I really can't stand this, I feel like I'm caged. No freedom. I've never even been out of Toronto. Well, except for Niagara Falls-- I've been there twice. Although I didn't get to play any games, and we didn't go for the hotel either. No responsibilities.
At the subway station across from Queen's Park, there was a lady playing the guitar. She sang in tune, no screeching, and everything. She was able to reach the high notes, and at first I thought it was just a radio or something playing. I don't remember her clothes, but she didn't look poor or anything. Maybe the money was just confirmation of her beautiful voice. I was wondering, is she trying to become famous? Maybe someone will discover her underground? Or maybe she's playing for the sole purpose of entertaining the people that pass the station. She didn't have an audience. She looked really happy, and sang beautifully. Her smile was brilliant, and she wore red lipstick. I had to stop and stare in amazement for a while.
I was so afraid of getting lost, but he held onto my hand and didn't let go. The adventure was thrilling. It felt really nice near the lake, a little away from all the busy people and traffic. Let's do it again someday ..
I like it when you hold me near
With my head on your chest
I can hear your heart beating
and your steady breathing
It makes me feel so petite
So safe, yet fragile
and the world just feels Awesome.
Saturday was my first time leading a Key Club event as Key Club PRO! (: (That stands for Public Relations Officer btw!) I had an adventure with monsieur. We were planning to have "adventure time" for a while now, LOL. That's one thing to cross off my list of Things To Do Before I Graduate! We had a competition with the other "team" to see who could find 7-Eleven first, because we didn't know which way it was. The other team chose to go in the direction with buildings, while monsieur and I went in the direction with trees. Things aren't always as they seem, because we won! I gained hope when I first spotted the Pizza Pizza just across the street. Monsieur called the other team to ask what we should buy, but they had already bought the supplies we were on an errand for! I guess this evens it out, but we still found the 7-Eleven. Our sense of direction pwns (;
As monsieur and I were walking back to the tent, we decided to take a trail we came across. I recorded our adventure time. It was a really comfortable monsieur & madam bonding time. He had to hold on to my bag because he was scared! LOL The scenery was beautiful that morning. The rays of sunlight shone through the trees, but my camera didn't catch it very well. It reminded us of scenes from Twilight and New Moon where Edward Cullen would step into the sunlight, and his body would glitter. And also in the woods where Jacob Black's pack of wolves would hunt us down and devour us. I was more afraid of the spider web hanging from a tree that could potentially have a spider in it though.
As the day moved on, and twinnie and I sat in the tent doing our easy job, we grew extremely restless. We were also annoyed that the trees constantly peed on us in the tent. It was as if there was one rain cloud in the entire sky, hovering over the tent. While the runners were running the marathon, we got out of the tent and took a stroll. We stepped into the weeds and the trees, that led to .. we didn't know! Every trail led to two or three more trails. We came across a choice of three, one which looked pretty, one that looked like it'd lead us back to civilization, and one that we didn't know where it would lead to. We decided to take that last one-- we're so brave! The grass and weeds were up to our knees/thighs, and got our jeans all wet. Twinnie had to walk behind me, because I was also recording this adventure. I ran out of memory space near the end. We felt lost for a split second after running into the lady with the dog. We asked her for directions. If we had gotten lost, we could just watch our video! As twinnie said, we're smarter than Hansel & Gretel (:
I was reminded of our friendship from the past, that closeness we had back then. I wanted to take a tight hold on it, and never let go. It's so difficult because we only have one class together. Both of us are trying hard, and maybe we'll get there. I'm more sure we definitely will now.
This was my favourite thing to say at High Park:
I SEE CIVILIZATION!
Monsieur, Twinnie, Wangchops, Chewie, and I went to KFest at Christie Pits, walked around, painted tiles, made a silly-looking hat, and we were going to get our faces painted. I kept wishing one other person was there too. I was upset for most of the day because I felt so unimportant and non-existent to someone who was constantly ignoring me and not paying attention to me. But looking back to Saturday, I'm very thankful to have such amazing friends. We had a fun time at the festival, and I love them for always being there for me.
I made a blogspot! Hoooray, and it's public too. I really wanted a private one, because I write too slow to use my diary. If only I could use the picture on my diary as the Blog Skin. It's so pretty! Ahah. Yeah so, I'll probably blog often in the summer (: This can help my typing speed yay.
Math exam. I don't even want to talk about it. I almost fell asleep twice or maybe three times during it. I was somehow able to do a Trig question, and I couldn't do the other questions. Multiple choice wasn't that bad. Too bad the word problems are worth about half the exam.
